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Scot is going to get rejected on his deathbed
and when that happens
i will laugh, and he will hear it.
--The Awakening by Kate Chopin--
feminist book, inspirational.
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Thursday, September 27, 2007
People Who...
made my day:
Scot:: cause he asked me what kind of printer i have.
Carol:: made me brownies
Derick:: AzN x F1ghT3R (10:07:46 PM): "Sorry, I'm already going with the Drum Major of Arroyo HS, who also happens to be a State Champion."
there i updated.
:] now to bitch.
OH MY GOSH. ahfewuihfawuilhygawefhewihfuewhabnjkgabnuewrfaewluiyfajweb
okay i'm done.
anyways. 2 days ago was my birthday. it was pretty good compare to others. and yup. the end i dont know what to say. i'm not in an updating mood, sorry. hmm in AP literature we're suppose to be memorizing this Style Analysis thing.
"Toiling alone during lunch, Fred frantically decorated Indigo plates perched on north-facing slippery, sheer pinnacles."
which is ... a way to memorize
Tone, Attitude, Diction, Language, Figurative Language, Figure of Speech, Detail, Imagery, Point of View, Perspective, Organization, Narrative Structure, Form, Syntax, Sentence Structure, Phrasing.
fun isn't it?
i daydream alot, i don't know, well i do know. I like to escape from reality. ALOT. [did you know alot is really a lot?] i mean when i have time, i go off into my own world [literary] i seriously make up a new world, where i'm pretty, and interesting, and where there's such thing as "prince" and the perfect friends/guy and a loving family. also a cute dog, who can forget the dog?
i believe everyone does that whether they admit or not, we all have our "personal" world, some are just closer to reality than others. and we have our worlds so we can contrast with reality. and of course open our minds, and all those good stuff.
lets face it
with the world as it is today
we need to escape reality more than necessary.
i feel like talking about the Freud's psychoanalytic theories. you know the ego, ID, and the superego? or maybe the ICE BERG. but i think i should save that for another entry...
i should experiment.
:P but i'm not that good @ observing. i think i assume too much.
way too much.
ill update in the weekend for sure its late. loves
Scot:: cause he asked me what kind of printer i have.
Carol:: made me brownies
Derick:: AzN x F1ghT3R (10:07:46 PM): "Sorry, I'm already going with the Drum Major of Arroyo HS, who also happens to be a State Champion."
there i updated.
:] now to bitch.
OH MY GOSH. ahfewuihfawuilhygawefhewihfuewhabnjkgabnuewrfaewluiyfajweb
okay i'm done.
anyways. 2 days ago was my birthday. it was pretty good compare to others. and yup. the end i dont know what to say. i'm not in an updating mood, sorry. hmm in AP literature we're suppose to be memorizing this Style Analysis thing.
"Toiling alone during lunch, Fred frantically decorated Indigo plates perched on north-facing slippery, sheer pinnacles."
which is ... a way to memorize
Tone, Attitude, Diction, Language, Figurative Language, Figure of Speech, Detail, Imagery, Point of View, Perspective, Organization, Narrative Structure, Form, Syntax, Sentence Structure, Phrasing.
fun isn't it?
i daydream alot, i don't know, well i do know. I like to escape from reality. ALOT. [did you know alot is really a lot?] i mean when i have time, i go off into my own world [literary] i seriously make up a new world, where i'm pretty, and interesting, and where there's such thing as "prince" and the perfect friends/guy and a loving family. also a cute dog, who can forget the dog?
i believe everyone does that whether they admit or not, we all have our "personal" world, some are just closer to reality than others. and we have our worlds so we can contrast with reality. and of course open our minds, and all those good stuff.
lets face it
with the world as it is today
we need to escape reality more than necessary.
i feel like talking about the Freud's psychoanalytic theories. you know the ego, ID, and the superego? or maybe the ICE BERG. but i think i should save that for another entry...
i should experiment.
:P but i'm not that good @ observing. i think i assume too much.
way too much.
ill update in the weekend for sure its late. loves
Saturday, September 8, 2007
Waiting...
"waiting....
for someone: waiting for someone is, in my opinion, the worst. when you're just always waiting for that someone to call, or hang out, or see you, or say this, or do that, etc. because with humans we know that we're tricky people. there are lies and secrets and plots and such. to be constantly waiting for someone to make time for oneself gives them a sense of inferiority, of being neglected. when that person is able to make time for everyone else and just consistently blows one off, it is never a good feeling. worse is when what used to happen suddenly stops. there were phone calls, hang outs, meetings and then suddenly it's "I'm not free till later" "i don't know when I'm done" "I'm busy" "sorry, i need to see so-and-so" and it's just torture. even if one does get to see them or hang out or chat for a bit, it hurts to hear them talk about spending hours with another individual or ignoring you to spend time with them. to truly either care, love, or appreciate someone and then to just feel shunned and shut out by them is something that cannot explain. and it's something that can't be remedied either. There is no time to say "hey, what happened?" because then you are either possessive, clingy, or just plain annoying. there's no way to even allow them to see how much it hurts. where there was once friendly care and concern (or maybe even more) there's that cold tinge to a voice that all people recognize. and to change one's life, or even alter one's usual pattern in order to make room for this individual who doesn't seem to want to give you the time of day is something that cuts down to one's soul.
for something: is a bit more bearable compared to the previous topic. whether it's waiting for a score, a class, a job, a present, a day, a time, anything. the key here is that it's tangible. a score doesn't' change, a class is always there, a job will always be available, a present will come, a day will arise, a time shall present itself. however, it's the waiting that kills. the pondering of "will i get it?" and even worse when it ends up being delivered to a "less deserving one". there are always those moments where we think we have something in the bag and it turns out that we lost the cat. i personally believe that it isn't waiting for the thing itself that hurts, it's the possibility of losing it. it's the possibility of not getting it that strings on and on and we whine and complain and stress/worry over. it is the "i might not get into that class" that we struggle with. our insecurities and our fear of being presumptuous make it hard for us to just let things be. we're constantly struggling with our doubts and fears and this makes it extraordinarily difficult to just let things be. we're always projecting the future instead of letting it stand on it's own two feet. more often than not waiting for something shouldn't even happen. once submitted, your application can't be changed so why spend all that time waiting? why not just enjoy high school before college? because we're always looking forward and trying to get ahead, the only way to do that is to wait and wait and the minute the answer comes, pounce.
for life: this is way too complicated to even try to verbalize here. but i don't personally believe it happens so I'm not gonna write about it."
By one of Emmeline Wong's friend.
for someone: waiting for someone is, in my opinion, the worst. when you're just always waiting for that someone to call, or hang out, or see you, or say this, or do that, etc. because with humans we know that we're tricky people. there are lies and secrets and plots and such. to be constantly waiting for someone to make time for oneself gives them a sense of inferiority, of being neglected. when that person is able to make time for everyone else and just consistently blows one off, it is never a good feeling. worse is when what used to happen suddenly stops. there were phone calls, hang outs, meetings and then suddenly it's "I'm not free till later" "i don't know when I'm done" "I'm busy" "sorry, i need to see so-and-so" and it's just torture. even if one does get to see them or hang out or chat for a bit, it hurts to hear them talk about spending hours with another individual or ignoring you to spend time with them. to truly either care, love, or appreciate someone and then to just feel shunned and shut out by them is something that cannot explain. and it's something that can't be remedied either. There is no time to say "hey, what happened?" because then you are either possessive, clingy, or just plain annoying. there's no way to even allow them to see how much it hurts. where there was once friendly care and concern (or maybe even more) there's that cold tinge to a voice that all people recognize. and to change one's life, or even alter one's usual pattern in order to make room for this individual who doesn't seem to want to give you the time of day is something that cuts down to one's soul.
for something: is a bit more bearable compared to the previous topic. whether it's waiting for a score, a class, a job, a present, a day, a time, anything. the key here is that it's tangible. a score doesn't' change, a class is always there, a job will always be available, a present will come, a day will arise, a time shall present itself. however, it's the waiting that kills. the pondering of "will i get it?" and even worse when it ends up being delivered to a "less deserving one". there are always those moments where we think we have something in the bag and it turns out that we lost the cat. i personally believe that it isn't waiting for the thing itself that hurts, it's the possibility of losing it. it's the possibility of not getting it that strings on and on and we whine and complain and stress/worry over. it is the "i might not get into that class" that we struggle with. our insecurities and our fear of being presumptuous make it hard for us to just let things be. we're constantly struggling with our doubts and fears and this makes it extraordinarily difficult to just let things be. we're always projecting the future instead of letting it stand on it's own two feet. more often than not waiting for something shouldn't even happen. once submitted, your application can't be changed so why spend all that time waiting? why not just enjoy high school before college? because we're always looking forward and trying to get ahead, the only way to do that is to wait and wait and the minute the answer comes, pounce.
for life: this is way too complicated to even try to verbalize here. but i don't personally believe it happens so I'm not gonna write about it."
By one of Emmeline Wong's friend.
QuickWrite:: Love
Kami says (8:29 PM):
give me a topic
zaknafein says (8:29 PM):
Love
Lets start things off with Kami's Definition.
Naive:: A feeling which one cannot comprehend. Something so deep one can spend hours trying to describe a feeling of Love.
Reality:: a four-letter word. a "feeling" of infatuation.
What the hell is love? wait i think i already wrote about this...
let me go check...
...
never mind
love, i don't know what it is to tell the truth. some people experience love, others experience "love". some people wants to experience love so bad, that they make up their own version of love. why? because they're lonely, they need someone there. people just cannot stand the idea of being alone, like for instance, almost everything comes with a pair, black white, good bad, girl boy, love hate, short tall, complete opposites right? well why can't it just be short...
getting off topic.
LOVE LOVE LOVE
as i said above
it is indescribable.
every definition is different.
it is very hard to explain.
experience it to understand it.
i haven't yet.
zaknafein says (8:32 PM):
write about how because life is so fragile and finite, that that is what makes it so special.
that is so true life is special, but some of us doesn't understand that, we think we're invincible, yes we will die but not yet not till we've accomplish this or that.
but that's not true, we will die and it could be any second. so why not cherish it? because if all of us cherish our lives, then we wouldn't have jobs, we wouldn't have long term goals in life. we would live each day as if it was our last. [nice quote but don't do it literally] which leads to what is the meaning of life, why are we here??
but i don't want to talk about that it makes me depressed, and slightly sucidial which is stupid since i do not want my life to end. i am barely getting over the meaning of life question since my friend died.
life is special, should we treat it that way? yes we should but we wouldn't because we do not like thinking about what we do not understand. we prefer to plan about stuff we know, to enjoy our "long" lives.
live your life as if it was your last...
what would you do?
me?
i would go about the day as if it was any other day, but i would enjoy every detail, how colors clash against each other, how the wind blows slightly and you would smell a hint of something from far away, how the air is fresh and sweet.
now i don't like thinking about this.
end of the story.
-Kami
give me a topic
zaknafein says (8:29 PM):
Love
Lets start things off with Kami's Definition.
Naive:: A feeling which one cannot comprehend. Something so deep one can spend hours trying to describe a feeling of Love.
Reality:: a four-letter word. a "feeling" of infatuation.
What the hell is love? wait i think i already wrote about this...
let me go check...
...
never mind
love, i don't know what it is to tell the truth. some people experience love, others experience "love". some people wants to experience love so bad, that they make up their own version of love. why? because they're lonely, they need someone there. people just cannot stand the idea of being alone, like for instance, almost everything comes with a pair, black white, good bad, girl boy, love hate, short tall, complete opposites right? well why can't it just be short...
getting off topic.
LOVE LOVE LOVE
as i said above
it is indescribable.
every definition is different.
it is very hard to explain.
experience it to understand it.
i haven't yet.
zaknafein says (8:32 PM):
write about how because life is so fragile and finite, that that is what makes it so special.
that is so true life is special, but some of us doesn't understand that, we think we're invincible, yes we will die but not yet not till we've accomplish this or that.
but that's not true, we will die and it could be any second. so why not cherish it? because if all of us cherish our lives, then we wouldn't have jobs, we wouldn't have long term goals in life. we would live each day as if it was our last. [nice quote but don't do it literally] which leads to what is the meaning of life, why are we here??
but i don't want to talk about that it makes me depressed, and slightly sucidial which is stupid since i do not want my life to end. i am barely getting over the meaning of life question since my friend died.
life is special, should we treat it that way? yes we should but we wouldn't because we do not like thinking about what we do not understand. we prefer to plan about stuff we know, to enjoy our "long" lives.
live your life as if it was your last...
what would you do?
me?
i would go about the day as if it was any other day, but i would enjoy every detail, how colors clash against each other, how the wind blows slightly and you would smell a hint of something from far away, how the air is fresh and sweet.
now i don't like thinking about this.
end of the story.
-Kami
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