For me more than you

i overreact too much.
the end.

really... i'm so like stupid/lame i dont know how to describe it but i really do overreact
when justin called me i got semi annoyed and stopped talking so it's just an awkward silence why?
because i was doing my ap language and i can't concentrate when i'm on the phone. so i was like UGHHHHH so i tried to do my work holding onto the phone but it didn't work out so well cause i could still hear the static. so i was like like
'hey ill talk to you later. bye.'
'uhH by-' -hangs up- before he even finishing saying goodbye
i'm so mean.
and like
a few mins later (20mins) i text him
'sorry'
'why' him
'i was being mean'
'when you hung up on me? naw you weren't mean i was boring hahaha you're never mean sweetheart' him.

makes me feel even worst.
where did i find such nice friends...

and edward

sdaisy (7:43:45 PM): im done overreacting
sdaisy (7:43:51 PM): and being stupid
sdaisy (7:43:53 PM): hullo
enade111 (7:44:19 PM): as long as u feel better
enade111 (7:44:30 PM): go get something thatll cheer u up more
enade111 (7:44:34 PM): i like u chipper

he's awesome.

and maybe it's the music
first thing that played "bad day -daniel powter"
then "collide -howie day"
two depressing songs that have a somewhat up lifting ending.
i should get back to ap lang. but i really needed to type stuff out.
aiyah
i'm so stupidly stupid.
i deserve to live in a cave like a hermit
away from civilization. so i won't hurt anyone or mess with them.

oh and dillon bond
he's... no word to describe him. either he's just trying very hard and is very good at it to sympathize with me or he's my soul mate. i dont know but. wow.
facebook inbox. <3

scot (: i still have not got you thingy but thanks anyways <3


i don't like telling people what's wrong. because i don't want them wasting their time worrying about me... or maybe i just want them to bug me more therefore making me feel so much better. but nah let me just do the surface feelings.
i dont like wasting their time. but what my friend tells me it worries them more so maybe i should just spill it. and sometimes when i'm getting there and right on the tip of my tongue i realize how stupid my problems are so i chicken out and pretend everything is okay and promise myself ill solve it myself at home.
and when i do get it out. i cry like 920473 times. re: friday with edward. bawling my butt off in the car with him. i swear i got his shirt really wet. but he stuck through it. offering encouraging statements and such.
but i felt so much better.
... too bad i can't do that easily it takes awhile for me to let loose with people around. edward's just lucky...

okay ap lang. goodbye blogspot
i love you.

Friends

i never knew i had friends like these.
thank you jaimie, dave, and jason. i never except you guys to bring me out of the dump i was in. (well i expected jaimie but not the guys) and you guys just made my WHOLE weekend. with the stupid antics and games.

oh and scot.

i love you to death. you're one of the awesome guys that could break and then glue me back together within a few words.

Know that I will always support you too! Even if we aren't talking, you're always on my mind.

Love,

^ that really mean a lot to me. cause that stupid phrase gave me a breakdown which lead to jaimie picking me up and taking me to dave's house, and there i had the best time i could ever have.
(: and you're always on my mind too.

loves.

Butchering the English Language

My AP English Language teacher Mr. Ryan. made it very very VERY clear to us how 'smart' people these days are butchering the English language by using 'modern' English.
so basically modern English is the same thing but the real meaning to the passage is more evasive and the words are bigger and more advance.
For our weekend homework, we had to find/make up a sentence and butcher it with modern english. so here is mine...

the original sentence

I saw my friend at the park, and she asked me what color the grass is. I told her it was green.

in modern english.

I was spending the beautiful hours of daylight out exercising my anatomy, when I happened to spot my valued colleague. Now, my dear listeners this colleague of mine is quite particular she likes to question the simple things of everyday life in tremendously anomalous positions. Furthermore this position she was in, was quite bizarre. You see, she was bent over backward staring intently at this blade of grass. I promenaded towards her, and inquired what she was staring conscientiously at. Even though she was in an awkward position she managed to respond with a query.
“Might I inconvenience you for a moment?”
“Why of course.”
“I was wondering what color is this blade of grass?”
I respond: “in view of the fact that this life form is a perennial herb, it must use photosynthesis to obtain energy from light. In order for photosynthesis to work, chlorophyll molecules are specifically arranged around the region of pigment protein complexes identify as photosystems which are embedded in the thylakoid membranes of chloroplasts. In these complexes, chlorophyll serves two primary functions. The function of the vast majority of chlorophyll is to absorb light and transfer that light energy by resonance energy transfer to a specific chlorophyll pair in the reaction center of the photosystems. For the reason of chlorophyll’s selectivity regarding the wavelength of light it absorbs, areas of a leaf containing the molecule volition materialized as a deep jade green.”

i am pretty proud of myself. so please! celebrate with me for a few seconds then you can critize my horrible use of words.

darling its me,
Kami.