so... i have an apartment by campus now, and i officially just accepted the fact that Riverside is my home. yes there are some things that i dislike about but... in the end i call it home. i love it.
realization like 5 mins ago. being in riverside made me soft towards my family. not like oh i miss them, more like i'm weak and sensitive and i got worst at handling their criticism...
example: parents worried about my health (because i keep needing to go back to the doctors). says i should eat more veggies (which is VERY true) lectures me ... etc. usually i would answer and respond but for some weird reason all i could do is mutter a yes and start tearing up... WTF
then last night and today my brother raised his voice at me. okay that's normal. but why was i so close to crying?! i mean OMG i handle WAY worst in high school...
...
shit man riverside made me soft -_-;;;
so yeah im very close to just running away and driving home tonight instead of staying till tomorrow.
ultra fail.
