sometimes you just take my breath away...
when i'm bored... okay not bored but most of the time i imagine different scenerios to my life. like what if this guy comes out of no where and ... etc.
the thing is i usually think of... pessimistic ones. mostly involving me getting shot or stab and stuff. because i always wonder how the world would move without me.
but yeah...
sometimes when i am alone and it's quiet all i hear would be the very very far away sound of traffic or crickets... i yearn for a hug.
sometimes when that feeling comes up i would call him. and sometimes i would just break down and cry. because i would be thinking up scenerios again. of him saying no i'm not worth his time
...
this is one of those times i want to cry but instead i left my bed and started typing...
i want to call him
but...
he's busy.
