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1. Prompt #1 (freshman applicants)
a. Describe the world you come from — for example, your family, community or school — and tell us how your world has shaped your dreams and aspirations.

Ever since I was young, my parents always told me how lucky I was to be raised in America. This is commonly said among parents to their children, but very few people realize the significance of the statement. Throughout the years, I always wondered about my parent’s constant nagging and their statement about being thankful, and a few years ago, I finally realized what they meant. If my family had never moved to America, life for me would have been different. For instance, I would have fewer friends due to my ranking in the social ladder. I would also have less motivation to study since I know that I could not move up in society through education or work. The way my life would have worked out would have been for me to get a job at a young age to help, as had been the legacy within my family for years. With this legacy, there was never the hint of expectation or even desire for me to attend a top university let alone graduate from a high school. This is because whether or not I would have tried to get an education, to financially support me throughout the process would have been near impossible. At this stage of my life, I would have been applying for jobs rather than Universities. Since my family moved to America, I am given an opportunity to pursue an education without feeling the social pressure of work because I am a lower class. By being in America, I am urged to move ahead in life, to be ... you know what this is all BULLSHIT. if i stayed in hong kong i would have more motiviation to work BECAUSE its harder to move up in life. since i am in america now i don't feel like doing ANYTHING because, its so easy to earn money as long as you're willing to do the dirty work. really! its so much easier to slack off here. as ppl say Procastinators are LEADERS of tomorrow. and right now i dislike my dad and love my mom. he's so annoying always BLAMING everything on me even though it is clearly my brother. noooo leave the only son alone. I thought youngest child was suppose to be cherished and spoiled. not in this family. so University of California... you can go fuck yourself. because i'll most likely commit sucide before i get an acceptance letter. and i'll tell you this. EVERYONE bullshit their personal statement. maybe a little lie here and there or the whole damn thing. this isnt about who you really are. its really about who can make stuff up the best.



i wish i turned that one in....
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Surfing through the Web

:] so i'm bored!! i was suppose to go watch a movie @ 6 ish but my bf called and we had to bump it down to 7:25 so here i am! on the compuuuuuterrrr reading those random stories Yahoo puts up on their features. and i really got into one! and here it is::

At 73, she has raised 18 kids, now she will adopt 2 more
Lula Mae Walker is about to adopt her 19th and 20th children -- twin teenage girls. The adoption will be made official Saturday, National Adoption Day.
There's no such thing as quiet in Lula Mae Walker's home.
Loud, bouncy and boisterous are all permanent features of the modest, light-blue house in northwest Fort Lauderdale, the place where Walker has raised countless children -- nine of whom she gave birth to, nine of whom she adopted, and countless additional foster children.
On Saturday, National Adoption Day, Walker, 73, will add two more when she adopts 16-year-old twins Rossano and Rossana Thomas.
For the twins, the adoption ends years of bouncing among relatives and foster families. Now, they have each other -- plus six brothers, 11 sisters and countless nieces, nephews and cousins, some far older than the twins are. One brother died years ago.
For Walker, the adoption is another chapter in a life devoted to loving children, no matter their race, no matter their birth mother.
''The kids just give me something to keep going,'' Walker said. ``It's just amazing how blessed I have been.''
The story of how Walker found so much love for so many children begins with death. In the late 1970s, she lost five people she dearly loved: her husband, two sisters, her father-in-law and a sister-in-law.
Walker turned to her church for help, but found little of it, she said.
A friend suggested that she become a foster parent.
''If you're going to help,'' Walker recalls being told, ``give it to those who need.''
Walker took in her first foster child in April 1984, she said.
By 1991, her nine biological children were grown, but her house was filled with 11 children of different races and ages, most of whom she adopted.
''It takes something else to make a mother,'' said adopted daughter Rebecca Walker, 31, of Fort Lauderdale. ``She is my mother.''
Those children grew up and started their own families.
By January 2007, Walker's house was a bit quieter. She shared it with a pair of foster children and one granddaughter.
Then she got a call about the twin girls, who were born five minutes apart.
The girls had been placed with ChildNet, Broward County's privately run foster-care agency. ChildNet assigned the case to Kids in Distress, the agency Walker has worked with.
''They said I would be the best possible place for the girls,'' Walker said.
The girls' mother died 12 years ago. Walker said their story reminded her of one of her own granddaughters, who also died and left behind twin girls.
After Rossano and Rossana's mother died, the twins bounced between family members and foster homes.
But they kept the nicknames their mother gave them, both from a Prince song: Diamond for Rossano, Pearl for Rossana.
The first time they met Walker, Rossano didn't say much.
''I was shy. I was always a shy person,'' she said. ``I just sat and looked at her.''
Rossana, who is more of a talker, said she and Walker just clicked.
''It just came naturally,'' Rossana said, ``because we knew it was meant to be.''
The twins moved in, and on the first day it was almost quiet, with just Walker and a few others in the house.
Then came Sunday -- which brought a tidal wave of Walker's children and grandchildren, most of whom still live in South Florida.
Rossana described her reaction as: ``Where did all these people come from?''
The twins quickly became comfortable as part of the large, extended family.
Once the adoption is final, the twins hope to change their last names to Walker.
There is no age limit for foster parents as long as they meet certain requirements, such as good finances, sufficient space in the home and 12 hours of yearly training, said Jennifer Smith, ChildNet's foster-home recruitment coordinator.

Asked whether she would adopt more children once the twins are grown, Walker gave a slight smile, then said, ``probably.''

Anyone interested in adopting or fostering children can call the local recruitment line at 954-414-6001.
ChildNet holds an Adoption Open House every third Thursday of the month from 6:30 to 8 p.m. at its central office, 313 N. State Rd. 7, Plantation.
For more information about the open house, call Jim McElhannon at 954-461-9219.

http://www.miamiherald.com/news/southflorida/story/770459.html
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basically
it makes me want to be a foster parent when i grow up!
when i was younger i wanted to do social work, and major in social work (they do have a major). but someone ask me what are you gonna do with a BA on social work? you don't need a BA for that! and i felt really really stupid x] cause i didn't know much about colleges and majors and such. so i kind of gave up on that dream. but it came back! because of my psychology class. i think i will major in Psychology and minor in social work and help kids everywhere!!
because i like helping people. and i just enjoy seeing a kid smile it makes my day. because its so SOOOOOOOOOO so so!!!! hard to make kids smile. and when you do. its like sunshine!
i don't know its hard to explain. maybe i'm weird.
but we're all weird so yeah!!!


and now i will .... surf some more! eat dinnerr showerrr then movies!
WOWOWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

we have marching band championships tomorrow x] im scared!

Lyric Box VIII

Love Song by Taylor Swift

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights,
See the party the ballgowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
You say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said, stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet because we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Let's Escape this town for a little while
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said, stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
And I was begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You be the prince I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby just say yes, oh,

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said

Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say yes
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
We were both young when I first saw you
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(: thanks.

Relationships

are stressful.

whenever i go into a relationship i always tell myself. it's a two person thing. but then i make it into a me me me thing. so i change and make it a him him him thing. and for some reason i can't seem to make it a we we we thing...

but really i prefer catering to him, because then i won't have to worry about being a "spoiled bitch." even though i am, naturally. it is better when i focus all my attention to giving him what he wants. an illusion that he's in charge and he's catering to me. since he's not really happy unless he feels like he's doing me a favor or spoiling me a bit. but i really... dislike it when he does that. makes me feel guilty that i'm using him.

my favorite place is my bed.

its been 2 months friday. i am slightly suprise. but you know what i bet we could last until graduation. because...
we're staying together: 1. we're "happy" 2. we have what we want 3. peer pressure 4. ew for drama.
if we do break up i'll be the villian no matter who did it because he is a super nice guy. also everyone would talk and be like OMG OMG OMG. so high school, can be its own little bitch sometimes.

when i'm __________ i like to sleep and forget about life.

i mean the relationship isn't fake or that i'm using him. it does have its good moments. the 1st month and a half had been pretty rough, i was being a selfish bitch, and i was a "ohh no! whatever you wannnt!!" transitioning back and forth. bascially i was bipolar? i guess is a good phrase. then later on i got the hang of it. ish... well anytime i feel like i'm gonna turn bipolar i usually scream in my head "don't do it or you'll regret it!" or "BE FUCKING HAPPY OR I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU LATER!!!" somewhere along those lines... and

i cry in the showers and sometimes when i sleep.

i really think i have emotional problems. i shouldn't even be in a relationship when i can't even keep a hold of my emotions. one second i could be totally happy, the next i would be close to tearing up... like right now. except i have a reason but this boy is bothering me... well not really. he's more like confronting me, and i HATE confrontations i tend to stay away from them, and try to keep it from happening. like this one time my boyfriend confronted me about my bipolar ish ness. i got mad and ran into the classroom. for the rest of the week i cater to him like no other. too bad i couldn't keep it up, it would of been sweet.

when i start losing it i hit myself to get back to reality.

i also tend to space out when i'm being confronted. i start fantasizing about something else... i dont know what to do anymore. so i quit trying to find my own way and like standing up to what is my right. i'm just going to get the critism accept it even though if i think its wrong. and just correct it to the person's style. i dont know what to do anymore... everything i do is always wrong compare to others.
so...
i quit.
you're right.
i'm always wrong.
because i'm an idiot. i'm stupid. i'm pretty much worthless. i'm pitiful. and my sorrys dont count because he said so.

sometimes i wish i was dead, so people would care about me for a week or so.


goodnight. i'm going to sleep...

i apologize for my post changing topics and ending up emo. i just needed to "vent".
or maybe just cry for help... i don't know. next time ill be happy...


nah. i dont want to lie here too.