update:: text

"And for the record i love you incredibly. You're what i looked forward too in my days..." - P.Diep

(: a sweet text to fall asleep to...

goodnight.goodmorning.

lovely sunrise.

a thought

a thought while i'm on the phone with my boyfriend
... whom/who?? i love very much...

i love him and i can't stop thinking about him, i get so happy talking about him and to him.

its just that sometimes... the thought comes in my head
i know i'm not his first choice girl.

i'm not his preference
i don't even look close to his preference
my style is way off his preference

i know he likes me... it's just this petty thought that means nothing but i'm taking it way over the top. that I'M NOT HIS FIRST CHOICE TYPE OF GIRL. that if he saw his 'girl' ...
i'm screwed... ]:

the thing is i was gonna cut my hair and dye it to be that kind of girl because i like the style. now i don't know if i should...
sigh.

i over think things fuck me

Party All Day and Night

vent:

i hate it how all my high school friends assume that i party non-stop. seriously you guys?! really!?!?
i have not been out of UCR for ages!!! i went to ONE house party and no clubs! oh my gosh
just because i was open and flirty during high school does not automatically mean in college that i will go straight into a sorority and get shitfaced 24/7. thanks! its nice to know what you guys think of me.
i hate it so much UGHH my so called friend said that "Kahei is going to get AP because she parties too much"
(AP = Academic Probation)
FIRST OF ALL!!! yes i might get AP but not because i party too much (i think i need to party more... ) but its because i am involved in too many clubs and such!!
such as NRHH (National Residence Hall Honorary), Evolution Dance Crew, Campus Safety Escort Service... etc! i also have four classes to worry about
so i dont think i have enough time to party hardy
YOU FUCKING BIZNATCH
....

i'm done. i think
its better to yell it than type it
but oh well

<3