forget trying to change or making amends
im just going to take the pussy way out and run away start a new life
ha! but the thing is you think that i will end up with the same situation since i didnt change
well
ill move to a new place far away and start my change there
since trying to change here is hella hard.
freaking everyone keeps reminding me of all my wrong doings
looking at all the bad decisions and stuff i did
ignoring me trying change, happily pointing out what im doing wrong while i'm trying to change
every conversation is the same, thinking i havent change
even if i tell them differently they wont believe me and REFUSE to believe me.
how do you expect me to change when you're constantly putting me back to what i was before??
you guys change takes time
and change is hard. very hard.
i know you're tired of supporting me and just want me to teleport from point a to point b but that's impossible...
just give me time... please.
yes i know sometimes it doesn't seem like i'm trying, and i just end up back on square one but... really? i can be super woman 24/7 i do have my weak points you all know that...
so the point of this message/rant.
change takes time.
change is hard, especially when reminders of who you were are everywhere.
by the way...
Choneze (9:56:23 PM): touche'
^
that's very immature of you.
thanks for putting me down. again.
