God is my doG

i don't know i want to talk about God these days.
just so random, cause like before, i go to church every sunday no questions ask, sing, hear, blah blah.
but i haven't been going to church which makes me think.
God?
i can't really ask the question
are you real God? are you??
cause thats the famous question.
i am asking.
why are we loosing faith?
because faith is to believe.
to believe is to trust without evidence of exsistence. [my definition sorry if its not to your standards.]
so, how do we actuallly loose faith in something that we don't have evidence with?
how do we get in the first place.
it's like Santa Claus.
yes i believe there is Santa Claus, he is a old man, that survive through time, bring with him really neat presents. of family, love, happy-ness, he teaches [indirectly] people to cherish your family, your friends, what you have in general.
"Oh man that's Jesus!"
NO !! har har
Jesus, is a "white" guy that happens to end up in the Middle East [which is filled with brown people]. Europeans butchered the picture. I think i understand why Muhammad told his people that he didn't want people to paint pictures of him. So he won't be the one being idolized, and that Allah is the only person? thing? guy? being worshipped.
Mother Mary, blue habit? IS THAT POSSIBLE BACK THEN!? anyways. blue and red? isn't that a bit rich for them? she has light brown hair a bit european yeah? okay okay, i still don't guy why we ask Mary for help sometimes, [catholic] i shouldn't really say anything because i'm not catholic. isn't she just a really really really devoted Jew? oh well.
i remeber my friend Stacey, when we were studying AP world history, and we were talking about Jesus. she was like... "Jesus is christian isn't he?? ... WHAT HE'S A JEW?!"
we were just like cracking up... sorry random.

so i'm doing this, because if i question myself, i will most likely end up believing in him more, because the more i ask the more i start to find stuff out and defend God. well like, debates you have to learn what the opposition is asking first and get the answers to win.
well ...
God is there.
not there there
but he's there like Santa Claus is there.
Heaven? haven't got to that.
Hell? Dante's Inferno. sick book

buh bye <3