sometimes you just take my breath away...
when i'm bored... okay not bored but most of the time i imagine different scenerios to my life. like what if this guy comes out of no where and ... etc.
the thing is i usually think of... pessimistic ones. mostly involving me getting shot or stab and stuff. because i always wonder how the world would move without me.
but yeah...
sometimes when i am alone and it's quiet all i hear would be the very very far away sound of traffic or crickets... i yearn for a hug.
sometimes when that feeling comes up i would call him. and sometimes i would just break down and cry. because i would be thinking up scenerios again. of him saying no i'm not worth his time
...
this is one of those times i want to cry but instead i left my bed and started typing...
i want to call him
but...
he's busy.
3 comments:
are you worried that nobody would miss you if you were gone? cause thats definitely not true... even people you barely know would be sad. its just how people are, we take what we have for granted, then when its gone we feel regret.
but you seem like you're pessimistic more because you don't want to be disappointed. just... when you think about something, just realize things can go either way, it can be good or bad, and whatever happens happens. you'll feel depressed less often if you think like that rather than being pessimistic so often.
and you don't have to be so lonely. there are plenty of people who care for you. don't assume that people don't want to talk to you before you even try. starting to talk about how you feel is awkward, but that's just because you're worried that you might be rejected. and once you start generally you find that you had no reason to be scared in the first place and feel relieved.
the worst that can happen is that they won't want to talk to you. so what? its only yourself that makes you feel sad. if it was some random guy you never met you wouldn't care if he didn't want to talk to you. so if you want you can just react the same way.
i'm sure there's always at least one person who's willing to talk to you, if not more.
you're not alone.
sometimes i think of you and i miss you more than you could ever know
<3
i agree to the first and second comment. im pretty sure throughout ur life, there r pplz that love u and pplz that u love too. think about those pplz. u r never alone. even though this post has been post awhile ago, maybe today uve found someone that fits ur wants and needs, and maybe hes that special someone that uve been yearning to hug and cuddle with. anyways, good luck and i wish for the best for u.
-put a smile on :]
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