a thought

a thought while i'm on the phone with my boyfriend
... whom/who?? i love very much...

i love him and i can't stop thinking about him, i get so happy talking about him and to him.

its just that sometimes... the thought comes in my head
i know i'm not his first choice girl.

i'm not his preference
i don't even look close to his preference
my style is way off his preference

i know he likes me... it's just this petty thought that means nothing but i'm taking it way over the top. that I'M NOT HIS FIRST CHOICE TYPE OF GIRL. that if he saw his 'girl' ...
i'm screwed... ]:

the thing is i was gonna cut my hair and dye it to be that kind of girl because i like the style. now i don't know if i should...
sigh.

i over think things fuck me