coffee frap + 4 pumps of vanilla & dress the cup with caramel (:
location: Starbucks @ university village
i have officially turned into those students that sit outside of starbucks with a drink + food (usually marble loaf so delicious!) on their laptop trying to do homework while smoking.
yes i started smoking.
since march.
i went through the phase of chain smoking, to barely smoking, to smoke a few times a day, to smoke only during testing time.
right now? i only smoke during parties or coffee drinking time. so like once every other other day. ish.
(i see a cute mini cooper)
so i met this boy, that i cannot for the life of me stop thinking about. its like ... ugh the sad love story. why? because he's leaving in a week from Tuesday. (i think he's the one that got me to slow wayyy down on the smoking)
this boy is a marine... no he's not going to Iraq he just got back from there. he's going into inactive duty for 4 years then he's officially done. so he's going back to his home, with his family, which i totally understand. however it just sucks that... i just met him and i already feel this way about him. common sense says to not get too attach... but im already in way to deep (emotional-wise). so i might as well enjoy what i can, and try to get over it once he leaves... ugh. i hate this.
for now, i'm going to look up anthropology terms and write my paper due on friday.
my schedule so far till spring quarter ends::
5/26: CSES banquet 7-9 HUB302
5/27: EVO banquet semi-formal
5/28: Anthro EC due (3 page) & Reflection paper for Video project (3 page)
5/29: CSA Banquet
5/30: clubbing event $15 - Sharon Kang
6/1: Engl EC due
David leaves 6/3: Fall Enrollment 12pm
6/7: Anth Final 11:30-2:30
Barn: 3:30-6:30
6/8: ivans: 10-2pm
Barn cashier: 3:15-7:45
6/9: Hist Final 3-6pm
6/10: Engl Final 8-11am
6/11: Psyc Final 8-11am
ciao.
2 comments:
Do you ever stop and think that maybe you just have an addictive personality? That you just like to "want" things but not actually have them? It really is starting to seem that way.
Like, you jump from guy to guy, and in between you start to smoke, then you meet a new guy and quickly rely on him for an emotional high but now quit smoking?
Its like you constantly trade one addiction for another.
I don't mean to be mean, I just worry about you sometimes.
You're always doing things as if you're trying to fill some emotional void, rather than because you actually like them.
Just slow down and think sometime what you actually want in life, and stop relying on emotional crutches. Be happy with yourself.
But hey maybe I don't know what the hell I'm talking about and you're perfectly happy with your life.
Either way, I wish the best for you
<3
or we can all just conclude that i have a mess up personality (:
but that's basically it.
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