Phone Calls

sometimes when i'm on the phone, i can't reply.
i have the answer in my head
and i am saying it back to you in my head
but it just wont go through my mouth.
so i sit there on the phone
listening to you sigh.
and saying how i don't listen to you
but oh, i am listening
my attention is to your voice and your voice alone.
my mind is working for the best possible answer for you.
but sometimes...
i just dont know how to reply
and when i do know how
i can't force sound through my mouth.
and when i can
it's too late
because you're already gone.
and you wouldn't believe me anyways.
because no one ever believes me.
why?
"because i am a ditz"


tice : talk to me when you calm and can focus your attention on me


i will talk to you... but you just won't believe me anymore
until i can force myself to talk...
but then it'll be force
and everything will be overthinked...
but what's the difference
i am not "deep"
i like to talk about boys and school and food.
...


right i shall believe that too.